Friday, June 22, 2012

Today is Yours!

The red, white and blue banners are up. We have celebrated Memorial Day with the neighbors. The first day of summer is here and we are looking forward to our 2nd annual 4th of July parade and pancake breakfast Steve and I sponsor for our neighborhood. The year is passing us by so quickly. I sit back and ponder if I am filling my days with what God needs me to do. I get so caught up in the everyday tasks of a woman at home. I have always felt compelled to maintain an orderly home. My mother instilled that drive in me, and I am a more relaxed person when things are in order. Nearly twenty two years ago, when I received my first life-saving transplanted pancreas and kidney, I felt such a burden. I carried the weight of the donor's spirit. I felt I must do something with my life to show that I was worthy of such a miraculous gift. At that time, raising my children, singing the praises of the Lord, being kind, etc. was my goal. Now again, I face the question of what do You, Lord, want me to do with my life. You have given me so much joy these past 22 years. I have had the privilege to raise my children, lend a hand when needed, to assist with our grandchildren. I have been able to support my husband for 43 years. My heart is so full of love for the people around me that I can only smile when I look back at my time here on earth. My heart is full of gratitude. I have been blessed in more ways than I can count. I still know there is more for me here. My days are numbered and only You know what awaits me and my family. I thank You for constantly giving me a "heads up" to our vulnerability here on earth. I am older now. I have a grand past to reflect on. My body is still getting me up each day and providing me another glimpse of heaven on earth. For all this I am grateful. I ask for guidance. Hold my hand and wrap your arms around me and those close to me as we once again await our next chapter. Each of us have trials in our lives and today I take another positive step in this life. Please allow me to pray for you. Let me know what your needs are and let me be you prayer warrior. Know you are not alone. Someone is by your side and thinking of you. You are important to God and you are important to me. Today is here for us to share and rejoice in. May you feel peace. Jan